I start every column Iāve ever written the same way: brainstorm first, then byline, then I jump right in and just write whatever comes to mind.
This is going to be the last column I ever write for The Transcript. I usually only write these pieces because we need a space to fill, but this time is different. This time itās personal.
Iāve written for The Transcript since the first semester of my freshman year, and Iāve been an editor for the last two years.
Even if I knew how to do math above a third grade level, there is no way to calculate the amount of late nights Iāve put in working in the Transcript office, writing last-minute, pathetic excuses for articles desperately trying to fill space.
Itās amazing I have any remaining friends for how much ranting and venting Iāve unleashed on them, blabbering on and on about faulty technology, intense ethical decision making and embarrassing editing errors (special shoutout to my infallible roommate, Maria, who always knows when I need a hug … and a bottle of wine).
With all the difficult parts of my job in mind, I was worried that when I started brainstorming for this column, it was going to come out like a whiny sob story. But then I got to my byline, and I realized that this is going to be the last time I refer to myself as the Editor-in-Chief of The Transcript.
I realized next week is the first week in two years where I donāt talk to Hannah Urano or Noah Manskar at least three times each day. I realized that Iām never again going to have our department chair, Paul Kostyu, pinch my arm and tell me to āgrow a thicker skinā in response to some angry email I got that morning. I realized that the biggest part of who Iāve been on this campus for the last year is over. And I started crying a little bit.
Being the editor of the paper was hands-down the most challenging task Iāve faced at Ohio Wesleyan. From the moment I came on as editor to now, there has never been one perfect issue. Thereās been no day where I left the office thinking, āEureka!ā There has never been a day where I walked out of the office thinking, āThere is no way I could make the paper more perfect.ā
I had to learn to let go of what I coudnāt control, and to depend on my fellow editors. None of us have an easy job, but itās worth it.
We do this because we truly believe in a student-run newspaper. We love journalism, and we want to see it practiced on this campus. While weāve defintitely improved our aresonal of journalism technology, we are still behind and struggle to find new writers, photographers and editors. We are a small department that has a long way to go, but we always push through. From dependable professors abruptly leaving, new professors coming on board and fundamental changes to our cirriculum, our little major has seen a huge overhaul in the last two years.
In short, no part of my career in journalism at OWU has been a cake walk. But because of that, Iām confident in saying The Transcript taught me so much more than anything else Iāve ever done. I doubted myself every step of the way as the editor for The Transcript, and now itās over.
My emotional state is a mixed bag of pure joy and relief, as well as sadness and nostalgia. I have no idea what Iām going to do without it, but I do know that Iām going to miss it.
I never thought I would hear myself say it, but itās true. I have the tears to prove it.
This post makes me emotional. At some point in our lives we have to move on to make ourselves available for other bigger opportunities in life. This is also to give a chance to the juniors to shine. Rest assured that your efforts and contributions will be recognized by your readers. You are amazing. I feel sad that you have to go but that would be selfish so I will choose to be happy because I know you deserve more in life.